A friend of my just asked me on msn:

Why people have to go through life all the same way, grow up > study > graduate > find work > work > work some more > earn enough money > kahwin > mau anak/tak mau anak > continue working > and on and on and on… and yes… many people said they do find something DIFFERENT to do to get away from the dreaded life route… i’m sure that each of us sent here for a mission to complete… but what is mine har??

Err… I have no idea of what’s my mission in this world, honestly. I don’t actually believe in the so-called “mission-driven” theory of life. If we do have a mission, then where’s our commander? Ha. Don’t gimme that what “God’s the commander” funny answer la ok… In my own opinion, those things are beyond our [or at least my] comprehensibility, and for that, I truthfully accept my incapability as a human being. [Sorry if I sound morally/religiously incorrect. But C'mon... don't tell me you've never farted secretly in the public? Or, you've never questioned your girlfriend's loyalty?]

You’re correct. Many people are living their life according to the path that you think you’re going to take. We grow up, we go school, we go university, we try to graduate with a damn good result in the hope of getting a high paid job in the future, then we work, we earn money, we start to search for partner, we break up and find another partner again [if you know anybody who's skipped this step, please lemme know], we marry, we make babies, we work and work and work again to afford the babies, we wait for the babies to get older and to be able to work and afford us back, and we just continue eating and sleepping and laughing [hopefully] and eventually we die with the hope that our children will remember us, or that they’ll continue the bloody cycle to create another bloody endless cycles.

So, that’s it? Our life?

Well, there’s a say:
“A person has to spend his/her entire life to find the meaning of his/her existence.”

Oh really?

Then I don’t bother to find mine haha
It sounds like sitting for my math paper. Everytime when I’m about the get the answer for the question with the highest marks, the examiner is already standing beside me waiting for me to handover my sheets.

*kua kua kua*

Hm… maybe my working life has somehow affected my way of formulating the answer for this question.

Life’s getting dull? Not really.

Well it’s just that when our days are filled with the things that we need to do, we tend to forget about this worldly question.

My biological clock has started to constantly remind my brain of the invisible schedule, and that -
“You are running out of time! Just do what you want to do!”

My way of doing something different?
“Blogging“, probably.

My blog serves as a reminder for me to not becoming dull but to stay ‘normal’ with the introduction of my professional life. [I don't think a programmer is ever normal lo hehe]

So, my idea now is -

Just do whatever you think you want to do.

Hehe.
So simple ho?

Ops… I just sounded like a nobody on the street. [Oh no~ i don't wanna be like that!]

*What do you think?

When I was a very little kid, I’d sit by the house’s door everyday as the sun started to set, waiting for my family members to come home from work. I’d wait for them with the hope that they’d bring back something for me e.g. new toys or food. Well… it’s not about the toys and the food or stuffs actually, it’s because I’ve grown tired of talking to my TV when they were not around.

When they were late, as a small kid, I’d think to myself -
“Why they have to work for so long? Have they forgotten about me?”

When I grew older, I started to pay lesser care. I didn’t really care about when they’d come home as I started to get busy of my own stuffs. The only moment I thought about them was when my classmate told me that his father was planning for a family vacation. At that time, I’d think to myself again -
“Since dad’s worked so hard, why can he take us out for a vacation? Is working really that important than family?”

When I got into private university, I lived outside, and I only came back home once a week. When I wasn’t at home, I’d secretly go out with my friends and have fun until midnight, because I expected them to know nothing about it hehe *evil grin* [well actually they did] Anyway, I met with my family members less frequently. Not to mention the care I put on them. Then there’s once my mom asked me:
“Wha? Do you care if they come back from work at midnight?”
Sarcastically, I’d reply: “No. Because I think they should have known which one is more important…”

When I got back from work today, my lil sister popped at me and asked:
“Why you work until so late? Cannot come back early? Have you forgotten about me?”

Immediately I recalled those moments when I asked my family members the same question.

Now I understand how they felt at that point of time.
I myself can’t even answer it right now

-_-

*How do you maintain the balance in your life when you’re in your first job?

Me: “Hi… ”

She: “Hi… ” *handing over the documents*

Me: “hm… your… official receipt?”

She: “Oh …. ya… here” *flipping through her files and finally found it*

Me: “Ok… this is for you…” *Signed the forms and gave her a card with “cashless solution” printed on it.*

She: “Thanks… but what’s this card for?”

Me: “Well… Actually I’m not sure also. Probably it’s a card you can use to buy somethin…”

She: “Ha?? Hahahaha….. wow ok…. BHhuhuAHUHhahauha….” laughing wildly while leaving the counter.

-_-”’

I didn’t even know what exactly I gave her

Can’t believe the things I did on my first day of job as a Web programmer. I actually helped the new students to register themselves with the university. I thought I’m supposed to code on my first day. Ha!
Some even mistaken me for a staff from Registry department -_-

I sold fruits by the roadside today -

Can’t believe I did this again this year. It’s almost like a yearly ‘event’!
Well, somebody has to answer the call when the trees in my grandpa’s garden start to fruit -_-
It’s not really fun selling things in the rain lo

Dukong

Cempedak

Rambutan

The professional – my grandpa

Those are not for sell. What are those?? You guess! Haha

I went out today, and I took KTM.
I saw what you were doing over there, and I really wanna ask you something. I bet everybody on the train must have wanted to ask you the same thing–

How could you SNORE sooooo LOUD while having everybody on the train looking at and listening to you???

Gosh… that’s so embarassing ok!

10 Things You shouldn’t do [or being caught doing] on KTM:

1. Snoring loudly, of course.
2. Talking loudly to your phone. Especially, when you know you are going to swear a lot
3. Digging your nose [eww..... Trust me. I've seen it before]
4. Biting your nails, and spitting the nails in your mouth without proper navigation and directions.
5. Playing your Mp3 too loud that everybody on the train knows you like KORN. We know you have put on your headphone, but we have not.
6. Peeking at what others’ reading / reading what other people’s holding. I feel uncertain when I’m about to flip to the next page
7. Sleeping so sound that your head is moving like how your car’s wipers move. Nobody wants to simply lend you his/her shoulder.
8. Smoking!!! You know you’re not allowed to do so but you still wanna do it! Why???
9. Standing on your smelly feet!!! Wash them before you get onto the train or please don’t wear slippers. Please don’t stand besides me because I really don’t want people to think me as the possible owner of your smelly feet. Besides, your feet makes things worst when it’s already so packed.
10. Using outdated ticket, and still trying to talk the conductor / ticket-checker out when you get caught. You are cheating yourself. Haha

I’ve seen all of them on the train. Have you seen any?

Mr CEO says, a penny saved today is a penny earned tomorrow.

But what if the value of Malaysia Ringgit drop tomorrow?

For example, you save RM1.00 today. And that RM1.00 is equals to US$0.28 today.
When the value of RM1.00 drop to US$0.20 tomorrow, you’ll still have RM1.00, but you can only buy an ordinary apple instead of a Fuji Apple.

The point is, you can buy a Fuji if you spend that RM1.00 today.

A penny saved today doesn’t always mean you’ll still have that same one penny tomorrow.

Did I get it right?

The chicken my grandma reared knew he [maybe he's a she. The way he pees doesn't clearly indicate his gender. Ops! I forgot. Chicken doesn't pee ] was going down to hell when my grandma & mom decided to have traditional Chinese herbal chicken soup tonight. The chicken got all chicken, and started to rant his vitriol onto me [who happened to be the one serving his last meal].

Chicken: “It’s just so unfair!”

Me: “Ok… why?”

Chicken: “I don’t know. I just think it’s unfair for us chickens. You see, among all the domestic animals, why there are only ducks, cows, piglets, goats and etc and chickens like us being consumed by you human on your dinner table? How about cats? Dogs? Hot-dog is not counted because i know it’s not ‘dog’ even though I’ve never tried it before…”

Me: “Em… Some people from Vietnam do eat cats & dogs I guess.”

Chicken: “That’s different! They don’t breed cats or dogs like the way they breed us! We are like… born to be the source of protein for humans per se! You tell me, isn’t that unfair?”

Me: “I don’t know… maybe you should ask God.”

Chicken: “Ok I’ll try. Anyway, I really wish I were a cat that only knows how to sleep and play and enjoy being pampered and being cuddled by humans and…”

Before he finished his sentence, he’s being grabbed and taken out of his small container by my mom. My dinner was in making.

******

I laid down on my bed after the dinner, thinking about the conversation that took place this morning. While trying to get the points the Chicken made, I got so sleepy that I finally decided to close my eyes for a moment. Then I saw the Chicken with a halo on his head.

Me: “Hey wassup. Have you met God?”

Chicken: “Ya I just did. I actually asked him the question i asked you this morning.”

Me: “Wow that’s good! What He said?”

Chicken: “[adjusted his tone and trying to sound like the Almighty]
You only need to eat and sleep and have sex [to produce eggs] for the rest of your life before you wait for your turn to die! Do you call that unfair when everybody in this world is trying to retire early to be just like you? What’s so unfair???“

Me: “…”

Are you trying to be like the Chicken? Or, are you a chicken already?
Oh my~

Dear son,

I don’t really know what you’ve been up to recently. All that you’ve been doing is just sticking your eyes to your screen. What are you watching? [just forgive momma if momma hurt your feeling]

I just couldn’t stand looking at you sometimes. You see your one-year-older cousin? He’s been talking about visions, chatting about businesses and worldly issues, planning to buy a car, bringing back girlfriend and thinking of earning more money by working [i know you have your own 'unique' idea to earn money] and… and WHATEVER he’s been doing.

But, look at you.

You just told me that you might wanna get a Chihuahua in the future?

With love & with expectation,
Mom

Grandma went to hospital for her second check-up after the cataract surgery.

There are seats placed in front of each doctor’s room, and we can roughly tell which patient is going to see which doctor by looking at where the patient sits. Before my aunt told me, I wasn’t aware that there’s always more Chinese patients sitting in front of Chinese doctors’ doors.