And I think I have that same kind of self-esteem problem (o_0)
[Let's call it a problem for it's not healthy]

When I was in university, I never really studied properly. By “properly” I mean making notes nicely, studying all the sections Ms Hoo mentioned [and not only the parts I'm interested], and submitting assignments that comply to all the necessary requirements. To make it worst, I even skipped classes sometimes

But funny enough, I’ve always been getting good results in all the exams [please don't curse me for that hehe] So every time when people asked me about it, I’d just tell them that it’s just my pure luck, but somehow they wouldn’t want to believe me, and they’d take me as a smart person.

Ok. Maybe I happen to be an intelligent one

But that’s not the whole story (-_-)

You see, if I’d studied and put in all my efforts in studying, and I’d gotten a B or C, I’d have felt less smart, or maybe dumber, and that’d challenged my self-esteem.

“How come I study I still get a C?? Am I really that stupid?“

But then if I never put in effort and I failed the test, the explanation would be a lot easier.

“I didn’t study last night so I failed because of that, and not because I’m dumb “

So it’s that simple – humans naturally tend to avoid failure, and we don’t want our self-esteem being challenged. Because I don’t wanna take the risk of feeling miserable, I avoid making the effort altogether. And because of that, I’ve been limiting myself to the simple and the easy things, and avoiding the difficult stuffs all this while. So sometimes I’d just straight away tell people that I’m dumb even before they have any chance to verify that.

Quite bad, isn’t it?

I’m starting to realise that recently, and that’s only after I started to work. And now I understand that totally after reading that post.

That’s right -
Life will burst your self-esteem bubble.

So…
I shall start to do something from now on.
Wish me good luck

I found my myself having a quite peculiar routine -

Everyday, I tell myself to go to bed at 11pm when I am taking my bath at 8pm.
But, I definitely would go to bed later than 1am, and then wake up at 7.30am, and again telling myself that I must go to bed when the next 11pm arrives.

(-_-)

I should somehow get rid of that sort of routines in my life. They are not sustaining my life lo anyway. [*routine = something that helps to sustain our life, right?]

But wait.
What if I can’t fall asleep at all without that routine of telling myself to sleep at 11pm???
Hmm…

… bad idea. No good.

Maybe I should just keep that routine

Christmas is near, and there’s going to be a gift exchanging in my office. So today we did a lucky draw to decide the lucky recipients for our yet-to-be-decided gifts.

But I was ended up with a person I’m not very close with -_-

So, I told myself that if I should fail to come out with a good gift idea, I’d just buy 10 whole stacks of toilet rolls and tissue paper and then wrap them up nicely in a big box donned with striking fluorescent-pink wrapping paper and a super big ribbon.

That’s right!

It’s not like a bad idea anyway. I think I’m quite clever to come out with such a good idea

I bet toilet paper/tissue paper is the only thing in the world that nobody would find it useless

Jimmy Choo on TV:

…We should prepare ourselves better, and don’t rush in terms of attaining our goal. Because if we start too fast, we’d fail more easily...

I somehow feel less bad for my so-called under-achievement when someone with such magnitude said something like that. Haha

Ok. Maybe I interpreted it wrongly
But still, not all famous shoe-makers made their first pair of shoes at the tender age of 11, right?
Not all guys, for example, owned their first credit cards at the age of 22, right?

Ok ok. It’s not going anywhere -_-
Patience is the key for everything
And NO – I’m not going to own a card just yet, and I still haven’t start paying my insurance just yet (x_x)

I think the most embarrassing moment in a life of a boss is to accidentally drop your fake teeth on the floor without knowing it [although I have no idea how you'd drop it] and then being found out by your young subordinates who don’t know what to do with your fake teeth at the first place, but then finally decided to wrap your fake teeth with a bundle of tissue papers and then leave it on your table nicely, with a piece of note saying “We found this on the floor just now, and we think it belongs to you“.

It’s not a Christmas gift, sir.

HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

p.s.: OMG it just happened in my office

I went to PC Fair 2007 at KLCC this afternoon.

I saw some great street art from the view on the train.

I wonder if it’s part of the government’s beautifying plan, or it’s just drawn by some super free and creative kids.

But I think noone who’s free enough to draw all those things under the burning sun in Malaysia. Siao one meh -_-

Anyway, I bought a headset, a stack of blank CDs, USB extension, and nothing else.
[See. I only bought what I need. I'm such a good personal financial manager ]

Well I’m not the type of person who’d get analytic and give too much shit on the pricing of the stuffs or the new technologies and all. But being a stupid simple creature as I am, I’d generally group what I’ve seen into few categories:

Things I’d buy:

Things I’d not buy:

Things I’d not even consider buying:

Hmm… Why the producing company never felt ashamed of themselves? (o_o)

Things that caught my eyes:

More and bigger pictures: my flickr.

p.s.: I guess I’m physically very old now. I got really tired even only after visiting the second hall. And it’s not even half of their total 5 halls (-_-)

See. My free 1GB thumbdrive finally arrived today
It’s quite a useful consolation prize, albeit with one ugly you-could-tell-it’s-fake red diamond -_-

See more and bigger pictures in my flickr.

I wonder how much we’d respect other people’s privacy when we’re left alone in the room with their computers.

(o_o)?

I think we’re more tempted to violating their rights when they are politically, hierarchically or biologically inferior to us [e.g. your sons, your employees, younger brothers, or maybe your girlfriend/boyfriend]

Come to think of it – do you really have privacy in your office?

Maybe it’s about the degree of trust you give to and gain from the others regardless of your rank in the tree or chart.

But would your mom, roommates, or even your boss read your emails?
Would they scan your MSN conversation?

And I bet they’re not that bad to use your IM account to chat with your friends, right? [No?? (o_o)]

Hmm… maybe there’s a line in Malaysian Law that says something about that.

We tend to be more patient with our friends and outsiders, but less with our own family members.
Why is it so ha?

Maybe it’s because we understand deeply that family members won’t leave us no matter what, but friends will leave us if we treat them bad.

Hmm… my own theory or a fact?

A Schnappish* Sunday Morning would be like this:

Last Sunday, I was having a problem to stop that song from playing itself over and over again in my head (o_o)

*Schnappish – A new word of mine. It means cheerful and joyful and… and just Schnappi