Self-Portrait

Who is this?

K fo Kiss

Ok. We didn't go out.
But she came, we drank, and she kissed me.
That's it.

Click

Dear you,

Yesterday I dozed off at 9 something and I didn't send SMS to you.
I said I'll call you tonight but actually I didn't plan to do so.
You said I'm boring but the truth is – I don't know. I just don't feel like going out with you. It's just... I don't know.

We just don't... click.
You get what I mean?

Love,
Max

Grace

The things I'll look into how to do are:

• To make mistake gracefully;
• To apologise gracefully;
• To take criticism gracefully;
• To be nervous gracefully;
• To admit my ignorance gracefully;
• To express my weird thoughts gracefully.

*poop*



My smile is graceful enough can!



Still NO??

A Sum of Work

I'm gradually accepting the idea that getting and solving problems is the biggest part of working life.

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1 Get Problem >
2 Do a little blaming & get a little worry >
3 Accept the current situation and realise you need to do something >
4 Look for solution >
5 Solve it >
6 Divert it to your superior if it's out of your control
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I'm still stuck at the #2 sometimes.
Just learned a lesson telling me that I should totally avoid taking it personally at #2.
No Love/Hate. No Good/Bad. Only "I think this is the best for the company."

I believe you're just like me.
So I think I have just summed up most of the working lives on this earth into a formulae.

Woah.

Me = Genius.

Hahaha.

Florence

Florence is my friend, and she's also the sister of my favourite staff Opelo.
*Ope just gave birth to a baby girl. Have yet to visit her in the hospital.

I admire Florence for her non-circuitous. I think her gut, brain, and mouth always work as one. She's the kind of person who would not tolerant being mistreated. Go right to your face and ask : "Why you want to do that to me? Did I do anything wrong?" – that's her style.

One great personality.

Charm

For the first time, I discovered what "charming eyes/smiles" really is.
It happens in a split second, and makes you stunned and go like "wow..."

Not many people can do that I guess.

Intriguing enough, it's not something that can be reproduced scientifically. Just like a great singer knowing how to play with your emotions at will through singing.

I wonder what would happen if I really know how to do the "throwing a charming smile" thingy.
Hmm...


I would have got to seriously DEFINITELY use it to the ultimate level!
A lot of my problems would thus be easily solved.



Do I sound like I'm kidding you?



Sometimes reality calls for shortcuts. Hah. Serious man.

*Skimpy clothes do the same magic for girls I guess. Hahahaha!

Back to Basic

Back to basic:



It's time to start a new chapter for my life.

I need to be...

• More confidence;
• More effort;
• More patience;
• More open-minded;
• More thinking;
• Speaking from the heart;
  
• Less superficial;
• ???
  

We always have tomorrow. Let's start it all over again :)
It has got to be fun.

Disease

I have a serious disease.




And that disease is...

... I blush too easily!!!




I already am a 23-year-old ok!




GOD.




Someone please come and cure me!!

Secretary

In case I have forgotten, please remind me of the following lessons I've learned from other people's tragedies at work:

1. If you're the person who's holding the key of the building, please don't ever ever forget where you've put the key.
2. If you're the person who's planning for people's transportation, please remember to ask EXACTLY what's their plan. Assumption will bring disaster.
3. Always make a plan for everything even though you're not sure what will happen exactly. If a thing is not of your concern or is not of what you need to do, remember to state clearly to the people who you think will be affected by that thing.
4. Be aware of the consequences of verbally informing people or your boss of the content of agreement or black-and-white. You have got NOTHING to prove to anybody that you've clarified the content with them.

I'm getting better in this kinda of management job (?) Maybe I'll end up becoming a great secretary one day :P
I've heard of how a secretary could end up becoming the CEO of a company. Who knows if I'd become one someday?


Hah. Dreaming.

I lost my temper because I thought I was left behind again, and I sent a really nasty SMS in CAPITAL LETTERS to question people if I were really left behind.


And then people told me that the SMS was rude. And that I lost my respect to people.


*Sigh*
Did I, really?


I'm feeling so bad about that.
Because I'm afraid that people have lost their respect to me too.

I promised myself that I'm not gonna lose my temper anymore.
Sometimes, being a friendly, tolerant and kind-hearted person lives happier than being a prima donna or a diva who always wanted to control everything and needs attention all the time.


I think I'm having a bad influence from xiaxue.
But I think I'm just being honest to myself.


But being honest doesn't mean we have to lose our respect to people, right?

Will keep that in check.
It's good that I realised it now.

I'm tired that I no longer want to smile just to let people feel comfortable.
I'm tired that I don't want to conform to anything or anybody anymore.
I think I finally know who exactly I am. *GASP*

There are things that I always wanted to say in my daily life, but I can't get to say them out loud because I just wanted to be perceived as a nice person -__-

I think I'm being too nice most of the time.

Things I really wanted to say:

1. You're not my boss or my mom - why should I listen to you? I don't even listen to my own mom though.
2. Is it really that funny? If not, why are you guys laughing so hard?
3. Hey you! Stop acting so cocky ok?
4. You're nobody. So why I want to care about what you say?
5. Hey you're quite annoying. I'm busy here.
6. Hey are you hitting on me? For your information, I'm not gay. And you make me feel uncomfortable.
7. I don't want to because I don't feel want to.
8. Can you just do it faster?
9. So?
10. It's not my problem.
11. Can I know what are we waiting for?
12. Why cannot?
    

I'm also not sure why I have to be so nice?

No car today. Ergh.

Can't go no place join nobody :(

So I moved my computer to make it just right beside the TV set.

So I was a chameleon for a whole day. One eyeball for each screen. Hmm.

Thought of  buying a new wallet for Dad for father's day. His wallet now is like a big fat brownish bullfrog munching a stack of notes. I guess there's no coin inside.

I don't have much coins either. All guys don't like coins in their wallets I guess. HEAVY.

A wallet for around RM300 should be ok?

Ya, should be. Even my own pair of leather shoes costs RM250. Money should be nothing for a gift to father. Don't you think so?

Sad to say, but I really don't exactly know how old is my dad. Hehe *sigh*

As a good son *Ahem*, I seriously need to buy that wallet.

:)

My camera battery charger has been missing since a few days ago!

ARRGGHH! Can't believe it's playing missing with me during this eventful period. 

Can't live without camera already. My camera is surgically attached to my body :)

I kinda like heard a wife scolding her husband like this before:

"Lucky your penis is attached to your body! You'd have loose it if it's not!"

[o_o] Cruel, but that's an awesome metaphor. Haha [-_-]'''

Imagine a guy looking around on the street to look for his pee-pee. Wua~

Anyway, I'm planning to buy the charger. Estimating the price is around RM100.

Maybe it'll be cheaper than that, right?

I'm quite busy with work recently. Don't really have much time to think of other stuffs. I told myself if I'm going to be this same busy or maybe, busier in the next 5 years, maybe I'll have the same problem like my older cousin.

Serious shit, he's losing his hair at 24!

But, I think the possibility of me growing more white hair is higher than losing hair. Coz I've already got quite a lot.

I think I can turn my whole head of hair into white after one week of continuous coding without rest. Hahaha!

No joke man. Hope it never happened [-_-]

fly me to the moon

I've been wishing for a bottle of cologne as my birthday gift this year. But it didn't come after a celebration and two cakes. Well well...

I think, sending my birth name to the moon would be a lot cooler.

NASA

Happy Birthday to me.

*smile*

Dennis, Kevin, Sophea, Batman, Robin, Peter - I'll bring my memory of you to my grave, man :)
I know I looked like not very enjoying, but honestly I was really touched inside. Don't wanna act crazy-dizzy to spoil my chance of savoring this time-of-my-life moment.
[I'd lose myself when I'm crazy hehe]

Pardon me for I was kinda tired too.

So much to say, so much to be done.

Let's not writing them down one-by-one.

Will tell you here when they're already done.

Definitely I'll live better and wiser.

Hmm... wiser?

Haha... There's a thing called "hope" and most humans are motivated by "hope".

Thank god for creating this stupid thing.

Ya... stupid thing.

Arguing with my family has become part of my life. And it's not really good -_-
I always know i shouldn't, and I'm not the winning part in terms of reasoning, but somehow it's unavoidable.

"Some soldiers fight for their honour, not to kill."

People interpret "honour" differently, though.
You get what I mean?

Hmm... Maybe I pushed it a little too far.
Cheers.

Just went out with my family to go fuel station to fill up my car's tank and also yam-cha.

I could blame on the stupidly small road when I went too far ahead to almost block the cars coming from the other end, but I know it's me who's reckless.

And so everybody started to bla bla bla after recovering from the trauma I've just created [-_-]

"See see I told you... drive slowly la..."

"... like this also don't know a???..."

etc etc and etc.

"Drive so long liao still dono how to drive safely a?"

Now that, really made me upset.

*ROOAARRRRR*

My driving skill is like that lo. So?

Human are not coming out from a mold, so can't expect me to be driving veeeeerrry safely like everybody else, right?? 

Tell you lo... my colleagues don't even want/dare to sit in my car le!!

I hate people ranting on me bout the things I can't do great.

Haiz...

And with the very pissed-off-look on my face, I pissed off my dad as well.

Hah.

I'm a son who brings disgrace.

Sorry for I have a bad temper.

I think it's in my gene.

p.s.: Ya ya ya I also know that they care about me and that i should learn from it instead of being so stubborn so angry and so whatever. I know it all. But can you be so rational when you're on fire? Give me a break please...

The money bug is coming back this season, and it made me purposely go to search and install a simple financial software to record where all my cash went to.

Haha.

Like I can't make a similar list with Excel [-_-]

Anyway, I've just keyed-in my second day's expenses :)

And I myself couldn't even believe what I've done today - 

I freaking spent ONLY RM5.00!

Siao or not?

You must be thinking I'm broke or what. But seriously I'm not. Just that I think I have not been saving any money recently. You know, once in awhile people will be good for no reason :)

Ok. Maybe me only :P

We'll see how long I can be good. Haha.

*slap myself*

Cannot la. I still want to shop for some clothes.

Talked to bobo today and she told me about her coming interview. She's having some problem looking for her old multimedia assignments that she needs to show to the interviewer.

And I was a little surprised when she told me the only potential coursework which I thought she can show to the interviewer, wasn't done by her.

[-_-]

For me, it's like... walao... a very like-that-also-can and don't-know-what-to-say situation. I felt a little mad and so I told her to consider canceling the interview. 

And that made her really really sad :(

*sigh* [o_o]

Then she told me only true friend will say this kinda true but hurtful facts.

But now i still feel bad le [=_=]

How a?

p.s.: I wonder how many people will choose to say the hurtful truth over the kind words to their true friends.

I have a cup of tea almost every night after dinner before I go to bed. That's my new habit.

I like hot drinks for no reason sometimes. They just make me feel calm and warm.

Don't think I'd love it a year ago. I'd think it's just too old for a young and cool person like me. AHa.

What can you do while you're so free having a cup of tea?

Cam-whore with your grandma. I bet you've never done that with your granny before. Ahaha.